The Budster: “Why’d you do that?”
Me: “I thought we might have some fun.”
The Budster: “By hitting me?”
Me: “I just rolled the ball to you.”
The Budster: “You hit me with it.”
Me: “No, I rolled it to you.”
The Budster: “It scared me. What is that thing anyway?”
Me: “It’s a ball. Sometimes dogs like playing with balls.”
The Budster: “Why?”
Me: “I don’t know. Because it’s fun?”
The Budster: “I don’t get it.”
Me: “Never mind.”
The Budster: “Don’t do that again, okay?”
Me: “I just rolled it to you. I’m sorry. You want to go outside?”
The Budster: “That’s fun.”
Me: “We’ll do that then.”
The Budster: “Lose the ball.”
Me: “It won’t happen again.”
Squeaky toys are out.
Balls are out.
Walking outside is fun.
Playing growly hands is fun.
The Budster is a timid creature. He’s very sensitive and because he hasn’t lived a normal life, he’s easily upset by things that would typically go unnoticed by others. We work around his sensitivities. I gently rolled a tennis ball in his direction and he acted as though the ball was coming to get him. He never played with toys before and had little interaction with people. The most excitement in his day was when he barked at the growly truck that drove by his house. Transitioning from a solitary life to one with a loving family has not been easy for him. The first step for him was to get to know us. Little by little he learned that he could trust us and as we gently pushed boundaries out of necessity, trust grew. He may always be timid but he knows that we love him. That much he knows.
It’s a long story and my testimony is a little unique to others but the first thing I learned and I mean really learned about God is that He loves me. Above anything else, I am sure of that. Over the years, I have experienced some pretty awful things and I have seen things that no one should have to see. There have been times I thought I would surely die, times I wanted to and times I thought I had surely made Him angry at me but even in the darkest hours I have always known that He loves me.
I have learned that not everyone has the assurance of the Father’s love in their heart. I know some who claim to know the Father but after being around them for a very short time it is obvious that they don’t. They project upon Him their concept of what a father might be like but they don’t really know how much God loves them. They have never sat in His presence and let Him hold them. They have daddy issues that need to be resolved.
We all have things to work out in our lives but we have a loving Father who is gentle and will never leave us. Once you finally get it, your life will change.
Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.”
We are gentle and patient with the Budster because we love him so much. How much more does your heavenly Father love you?