It makes my heart hurt to think of what Buddy and Hosie had to endure when I look back on their past. Looking back on the horror that Sophie, our three-legged cat, and Sadie went through before we took them in is enough to bring anyone to tears. Buddy, Hosie and Sadie have a better life today. Sadie was only with us a very short time but that short time was the best short time in her life and in ours as well.
The sun rose this morning and we should embrace the new beginning that we have been given. Not everyone gets the chance at a fresh start. Some are trapped in their own private hell for their entire lives. Some step out of one hell into another. I’m talking about people now.
He was often drunk before noon. The few faithful souls who dared to come around were keen to take note of what he was drinking when they arrived before they committed themselves through the doorway and into his collapsing world. If he was drinking a fine wine, they’d surmise he might be having a tolerable day but if he was drinking whiskey or tequila, their first words were usually, “What did she do this time?” Seeing no way out, he was committing suicide and no one could stop him. It was the slow, legal way, not as messy as the guilt-ridden method of a gun to the head or a stomach full of pills but it was suicide nonetheless. They might one day find his car wrapped around a bridge abutment or he would be covered with a white sheet in the hospital, dead from one thing or another, but he would have died by his own hand and his own demons would carry him from one hell to the next.
My son attempted suicide three times in one week. We almost lost him the third time. I wasn’t told about the first two times until we were at the hospital gathered around his bed. My ex-wife didn’t think it was important to tell me. That is all I will say about that. You might be able to imagine the turmoil in my soul as I stood beside him in the hospital and though that was many years ago, my heart is ripped from my chest when I think about how I almost…he almost… Dear God.
We might look at our past and the mess that brought us to where we are today and feel that there is no hope, but today, as they say, is a new day. Each sunrise brings a new beginning. All too often we sully our today and our tomorrows by dwelling on the sins of the past.
2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.
God is a God of new beginnings. The drunk, the suicidal son, the broken hearted, in Christ we have a new beginning and OLD THINGS ARE PASSED AWAY. The sin and the failure of yesterday is gone. Today is new and our tomorrows are bright because God loves us and in Him we have hope. His grace and mercy are free. His forgiveness is non-negotiable. It’s been paid for and what He has forgiven, we must release as surely as He has.
As far as the east is from the west, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.
If I dwell on the pain that Buddy and the others endured, I will miss out on the blessings of our glorious “from now on” and if I continue to hold myself accountable for what God has already forgiven I cannot enjoy the fullness of the new life that is mine in Him.
We have all got war stories. We are all scarred from battle. We have all done things we are ashamed of. I am not concerned about the darkness in your past and what is in my past is none of your concern either ao when we meet, let’s not revisit what was. Let’s share the blessings of what is because that is exactly why God gave us today and He wants us to enjoy our lives from now on so let’s do that, shall we?
What Sin – by Morgan Cryar