Guilt

Me: “What.”
The Budster: “What, what?”
Me: “Your nose is in my face.”
The Budster: “Whatcha doin’?”
Me: “What does it look like I’m doing?”
The Budster: “We want to go outside.”
Me: “Can’t it wait?”
The Duchess: “Scoot over Buddy, I got this.”
Me: “Oomph! Ugh! Get off me!”
The Duchess: “I love you, Dad.” [lick] [lick] Me: “Get off me!”
The Budster: “We want to go outside.”
Me: “I can’t breathe!”
The Duchess: “I love you, Dad.” [lick] [lick] [lick] [lick] Me: “Fine! I’ll take you guys outside. Get off me!”

We got back inside the house as my alarm was going off. I was hurrying to shut it off and looked over my shoulder to see that Mumford was headed for the door. Fine, I’ll take her out too.

Me: “Wait a minute. Don’t pee! I’ll be right back!”

After shutting my alarm off, I went back to the door where Mumford was patiently waiting.

The Budster: “I want to go with you.”
Me: “You just came back in.”
The Budster: “I want to go with you.”
Me: “No, I’m only doing one leash at a time.”
The Budster: “I want to go with you.”
Me: “No.”
Mumford and I walked out and I closed the door behind us. Buddy was heartbroken. Now I feel horrible!

Mumford: “It’s a pretty day.”
Me: “It’s freezing out here. Go potty.”
Mumford: “Let’s take a walk.”
Me: “Let’s not. Go potty.”
Mumford: “We’re going to take a walk.”
Me: “No we are not. Go potty.”
She did and we went back to the house. I opened up the door and the Budster was laying on the floor looking up at me with those eyes. You know the ones. His heart was broken and it was my fault.

Me: [sigh] “You want to go outside, Buddy?”
He immediately jumped up with his tail wagging and the Duchess came bounding around the corner to join us.

The Duchess: “I want to go too.”
Me: “Fine, let’s all go outside. Not you Mumford. You just came in.”
There’s that feeling again.

The two excited dogs acted as though they hadn’t been out all night. We walked around the yard together and I felt guilty for not taking Mumford on the walk that she wanted. When we got back inside, I checked on Mumford but she was sound asleep so I let it go. I’m a horrible person!

Dogs don’t understand how important sleep is to humans. They don’t understand that humans don’t want to take a long walk in the cold after just crawling out of bed. It’s inconvenient and uncomfortable.

Love isn’t always warm and comfy and cuddly. Sometimes it’s inconvenient and uncomfortable. 1 Corinthians 13:5 says that love is not self-seeking. Those feelings of guilt are messages from our conscience, telling us that we are being selfish.

I was definitely being selfish. No doubt about it. I wanted to justify it by saying I was tired and cold but I was being selfish and my conscience wasn’t going to let me get away with it.

The Budster: “BARK! BARK! BARK!”
Me: “Not now, I’m…okay, let’s go.”

I’ll be right back.

[tick tock tick tock]

I’m back. Someone had to…#2.

I am glad I have a conscience. Some people don’t.

1 Timothy 4:1-2
1 The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons.
2 Such teachings come through hypocritical liars, whose consciences have been seared as with a hot iron.

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